Last night was bad. Louis has a facebook… I mean so do I, but we deleted ours together and he just got another one. It opened up the little box where I had shoved all the emotions regarding him and I couldn’t do anything but cry. I finally cried myself out and felt so much better. I was feeling better than I had in a while, actually.
Then, my family decided we were going to the store. We had to get dinner and everything. On the way there and in the store my mom and her boyfriend, Jeremiah, were fighting like children. All because Jeremiah was being “distant” and “not answering questions.”
Wow. The box of Louis shattered again because the whole reason I broke up with him was because he was being distant and we hadn’t been able to talk and I felt like he didn’t care about me anymore. As I was thinking these things, I heard my mom tell Jeremiah that he could leave, or he could stay. Well, he stayed… Louis didn’t.
The argument made me think about all the things I could have done differently to make him stay and I wanted to cut and kill myself. Instead, I overdosed on my meds and slept for 12 hours. Can’t say I’m severely disappointed with the outcome.
Well, that’s the update on last night.
